“GO ... DO”

“GO ... DO”

As I talk to myself,

and as I pray .. 

I say, 

“God, my words no 

longer have 

meaning ..

I’ve shared what

I believe..

Some agree, some

don’t ..

My heart and 

mind

are numb..

I’m empty..

I’m sad..

I’m done ..

Now I must

do..

Do what is

right without

sharing what

I do..

Just reach out 

to those in

need..

Just care..

Just love..

Just share..

Just your words

conquer ..

Just your words 

fill the void..

Just your words

renew my strength..

Your words say

“Go.. DO”..

No more words..

JUST DO..

Patsy McNutt Morgan

10/17/16

FORGIVE AND LOVE AGAIN...

FORGIVE AND LOVE AGAIN ...

When sadness and loss brings us together..

We must shed the ugliness of bitterness and anger ..

Look into each other’s souls and remember  the love that bonds us to eternity ..

Think and share the goodness of family..

Relive the togetherness we had.. 

Cherish the 

unforgotten memories that make us, us!!

The time is now to cleanse our souls and forgive and honor He who loved us first ..

Please forgive me ..

I pray you will ...

Patsy McNutt Morgan

10/10/17

MY LOVE...

MY LOVE...

So bound I am

to him..

He completes a 

part of me

that can not

be changed..

He comforts me.

He carries my

spirit where

no one else 

has been ..

Though I have

freedom.

I stay.

He is my

home, my 

dream of 

completeness..

I ache with 

stillness, 

surrounded 

by his love..

He is my

warrior..

My soulmate..

My eternity..

My love..

Patsy McNutt Morgan

10/04/17

MOMS BAKED CHICKEN..

MOMS BAKED CHICKEN...

For a brief moment this morning I could smell my mothers baked chicken ..

I'm pretty sure it was my favorite food  that she created for her family through the years..

It was always so flavorful and always so moist that it fell off the bone..

I've tried to replicate it on several occasions, but it never quite turned out like moms..

Mothers Day is approaching and maybe, just maybe, she was here in that brief moment ..

I think of her often, since she's been gone, and as I have grown older.. I realize that though she never threw her arms around me, or told me very often that she loved me .  I knew she loved me with every kind act of love, every baked chicken she made and every home made pie she baked.. LOVE  was in every morsel, every slice, every piece ..

Mom made most everything by hand.. I mean EVERYTHING  ..

She sewed thousands of articles of clothing for her children, her grandchildren and even for my dad..(remembering a red vest she made for him) .. 

But the most beautiful clothes she made was what she sewed for herself.. 

Numerous square dancing dresses she designed herself and spent so many hours huddled in her sewing corner to sew to their completion.. 

My mom.. 

Why didn't I tell her that she was amazing, creative, and ever so loving ..I know now that all she did for her family was her way of saying 

"I LOVE YOU" 💕 ❤️ 

These tears I shed are tears of remorse for the missed opportunity not telling her how she showed me what love really was without saying a word .. 

Thanks Mom for stopping by this morning to say Happy Mothers Day ..

I will try again to immolate that delicious baked chicken, but I know it will never be like yours..

Love ❤️ and Miss you Mom..more than ever..

Patsy 

05/09/17

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST..

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST ..

I have been having chest pain and it seems I have to have major heart surgery ..

The pain has become so unbearable that surgery will be sooner rather than later ..

Yes, major surgery is required to remove parts of the heart that have been broken and are no longer functional due to lack of blood supply.

Damaged now, the strain left a part of my heart atrophied and black with necrotic  tissue..

The aortic valve has been damaged due to recurring self induced bouts of anger, sadness and unbelief.  

It wasn't that long ago it's function was perfectly normal with no signs of sickness or grief ..

The chambers are now filled with tears instead of life sustaining blood which once coursed through my body with no signs of troubling turmoil.. 

The tears make their way down my cheeks now because veins and arteries have overflowed and had  nowhere else to go..

My heart quivers deep within my chest .. it's beats are irregular and  strives with difficulty to continue ..

It appears that due to continual outrage over ongoing unfairness, cruelty, and yes, even shame.. my once life sustaining heart needs more than CPR.

My heart aches for those  who have managed to forget how to love their neighbor .. Their fingers point to me and tell me I'm what is wrong for wanting what is fair to "the lest of these".

So I'll be asking my cardiologist to mend my broken heart .. take out the old broken parts and replace them or better yet, give me a brand new heart .. replace it with one who beats again for what is right and to "forgive those who do not understand and they know not what they do"..

Please send this prayer request onto to those who have unfollowed or unfriended me.. Let them know I will always love them and I'll be good as new as soon as I have my heart repaired 💔

Thank you and God Bless each of you and the United States of American 🇺🇸

ESCAPE...

ESCAPE 

Far beyond the realm, hidden beneath 

the sky, in between dreams, is a place where I go to wander..

It's where I go to imagine where life is free from tangled webs of disconcerting angry voices.. 

Where the war of words have no place, where thoughts are pure.

Where not one thing is a reminder of tumultuous battles of unkindness and acts of unwarranted 

selfishness ..

No one there to haunt and ruin perfection in its totality ..

I'm alone, I am free, I am sheltered ..

It's where I go to weep, to think, to pray, far away from the madding crowd..

It's my great escape.. It's where I can forget, if only a moment, life's imperfections and turmoil..

Erase calamity, forget unhappiness, and build on rebuilding...

Happiness is when I close my eyes and capture all of the essence of this space and time ..

It brings closure to my troubled mind..

Patsy McNutt Morgan

05/03/17

SUNLIGHT...

SUNLIGHT...

(Ecclesiastes 11:7) 

I need a day like today..

A day where the sunbeams, like lasers,

 sear through flesh 

and bone, muscle and marrow, to jolt and awaken my quivering soul..

Wrestling with deceit and torment, betrayal and bitterness..

Traits I've allowed to wreck and fester my thoughts..

Rays of sun warm my heart, clean my spirit, and bring light to my sorrowed soul..

May your brilliance bring refreshment and strength back to my weakened  mind..

You light my path where once the truth was a song of love I sang with joy ..

The earth beneath my feet once again lit up by your now constant glow..

Your warmth melts away the coldness that had surrounded me..

I am free of all who held me captive in their darkness..

For it is the filtered light that guided me to the brightness of truth..

Patsy McNutt Morgan 

04/24/17

TRUTH...

TRUTH

Sometimes truth can
strike with ferocious
turmoil..
Blunt, to the point,
seeking justice..
Truth unveils love,
 ugliness, and pain..
It splits and rips down
to the marrow..
Truth can belittle,
maim, and scar ..
It relieves sorrow
untold ..
Truth tells a secret
hidden..
Yes, truth brings
light where darkness
destroyed..
Relationships severed
when truth speaks..
Stand alone or
stand with many..
Truth will always know
who you really are..
TRUTH..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
03/23/17

THE RACE...

THE RACE...

Feeling the race of life,
I'm lost today..
Coming to the finish,
faint of mind, body, and spirit ..
Battered,bruised, weak,
and spent..
Tortured, bloody,
 callused, near
forgotten..
Sorrowful, tearful,
 and berated..
Looking at the crowd,
running to finish..
No one there to say
Well done ..
Just faceless images
I see as I stumble and
finish..
Last to cross..
No accolades of gladness..
Just my tears..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
03/22/17

I'M A LITTLE BROKEN...

I'M A LITTLE BROKEN...

I'm a little broken..
Since childhood,
secrets buried deep
where wounds go
to heal..
Since adolescence,
when memories still
return to echo through
canyons of mind
and heart ..
Since young adulthood,
where the foundation
of a whole new life
built a marriage, a
family with blood,
sweat and tears..
Now my older life..
I wonder why it all
passed so quickly ..
Yes, I'm a little broken..
My shoulders became
bent from the load of worry,
sacrifices, labor and lifting..
I've called upon the Rock,
my Savior, my Lord..
When I feel like I'm a
little broken..
I always cast myself upon
the one who mends and
heals all the broken pieces..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
03/19/17

I DIDN'T MOVE...

I DIDN'T MOVE ...

 I didn't move ..
You did..
I'm only me,
always..
I speak only
what I believe..
It's my truth..
It's my faith..
It's my stand..
I didn't move..
You did..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
03/09/17

RISE AGAIN...

Releasing  moments
of time arrested..
Winds of change to
have them return..
Shadows emerge
to darken forever..
Promises forgotten
to haunt and scar..
Faults of bitterness
surge and erode..
Perpetual contentment
abandoned and
forgotten ..
Still there is hope..
Light contains and
succumbs every
dark corner..
Life flourishes from
its wake ..
Water envelopes but
I rise again..
Rise again to
be renewed,
refreshed, revived..
Turn and face a
brand new day ..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
03/06/17

IF I WAS UNKIND OR HATED....

If I hate.. I hate that you are hurting.
If I'm unkind.. I am unkind because I told the truth..
If I hate.. it is because you were wronged.
If I'm unkind.. it is because I could not take the cruelty.
If I hate .. I hate because you were hungry..
If I was unkind ..it was because no one else would speak for you.
If I hate.. I hate that those with food, clothes, homes and riches were blind.
If I was unkind .. I screamed in your defense..
If I hate.. it was because you were always the last in line..
If I was unkind .. I defended your honor.
If I hate .. I stood on the corner and shouted at those who lost feeling for humanity.
If I am unkind .. it is because the man who lives in the gilded tower has no understanding of your plight ..
So I will gladly be the one who hated and was unkind.. because I reached out to  you who suffer ..
It was commanded of me ..

Patsy McNutt Morgan
02/21/17

I'VE LEARNED TO DANCE IN THE RAIN...

It's a dark
dreary rainy
day..
But, I've
learned to
dance in
the rain..
Feeling the
cold wind
and rain
on my face..
I feel as it
tears through
to my soul..
Like the storms
of life, the
untold stories
I've held tight
within ..
the biting
sting
of rain
desperately
tries
to crush
my spirit..
Instead I
continue
to dance
in the rain...
I know soon
the sun will
warm and
bring light
where the
shroud of
darkness
lingered.
For it is my
fervent prayer..
For now,
I shall continue
to dance
in the rain.

Patsy McNutt Morgan
02/19/17

PRAYER FOR OUR NATION...

DEAR GOD
Where are the real men of power ?  Where are the avengers of truth who rise to the occasion to destroy the enemy ?
The true men of faith and honor who will fight for democracy ?
If there was ever a time it is now ..
Our cries of help echo through this land of liberty ..
Our nation is slipping into the abysss of darkness..  only flickers of light remain.
Men of God have been duped and lead estray..
Where indeed are the brave men who will fight for justice and freedom until the wrong has be righted and the stench replaced with sweet air of freedom ..
MEN OF COURAGE ARISE .. if ever there was  a time, it is now🇺🇸
Amen

SELF IN BOTH...

SELF IN BOTH ...

Last night I had a dream I was a little girl.  I was no older than four or five years old.
I had nothing but the thread bare clothes on.  I wore no shoes.. my feet were dirty, bruised and sore ..
My hair was unkempt and had not been combed for a very long time ..
I was extremely shy to the point I  wanted to hide rather than speak to anyone ..
In my dream I had no one .. I was alone, hence my social skills were nil ..( remember this was a dream).
"Someone" in my dream took pity on her ..  "I" gave her second hand clothes and on her feet I bought her the brightest pair of bright pink rubber boots..
My eyes twinkled with joy. I actually  felt happiness..
Something else happened.. The bearer of the clothing and rubber boots saw this child's happiness and decided to lavish more gifts, food and invited her to stay with her ..
In this dream I played both parts.  I knew this little girl as well as I knew the generous gift giver ..
In my dream I was the lost little girl with nothing as well the bearer of gifts who wanted and learned the joy of giving ..
You see, when I was the little girls age, my family were victims of a house fire.. Mom and dad took me across the street to the neighbors house and I'm guessing got lost in the daily tasks of clean up and remodeling .. I guess they figured I was being well cared for and didn't bother to visit me much .. Soon I became ill, I didn't eat or drink and the Dr said I was wasting away .. I still remember feeling lost and at that age I just felt alone .. the word neglect comes to mind now.. but at that time that word was not in my realm of understanding let alone my vocabulary..
Mom and dad decided it was time for me to come home .. Feeling relieved that I was finally  home was an understatement . Once again I was  with my brothers and my sisters ..
My birthday  was coming up ..  I really had very little because of the fire, my elementary school surprised me with a huge party with gifts of clothes and toys for my birthday .. I was turning inside out. I wanted to run and hide .. There were way too many people. My eyes filled with tears because I could not comprehend  that all these tables were filled with the most gifts I'd ever seen and they were all for me..
This little girl, much like the little girl in my dream was so full of joy .. I've never forgotten the generosity and I, in turn, have tried to live a life of empathy and gratitude ..
I'm pretty sure it was the most life changing experiences of my life ..
I felt the presence of He who can and did change my life forever.   From that shy forgotten little girl, to giving my life raising a large family and going into a livelihood of nursing.. To this day I can say I am very proud of who I have become and the life God has given me ..
I still need his guidance and love everyday ..
I know I have disappointed him many times over, but He is a forgiving God and all I have to do is ask His forgiveness ..
For those I have disappointed and hurt .. I sincerely hope you will also forgive me of my shortcomings and bad choice of words and deeds ..

Patsy
01/06/17

PEACE OUT...

I have no more patience and damn sure no more time to bicker and feud about circumstances, life, and  how we perceive them..
The context is overwhelming and frankly polarizing ..
No!! I am not hateful or mean.. my opinions are mine and I have the right to fight for the truth as I see it, and call bullshit when I see or hear it ..
Today I'm fighting a battle with forces unseen and heartaches that you will never know .. They weigh heavily on my soul and at this point in time I have NO time, nor the  inclination, to play  the battle of one-up-man-ship .. So forgive me if I drop out of this ridiculous game..
For now I am focusing on the reality that I have bigger fish to fry and it damn well needs my unfaltering, unwavering attention..
Patsy
01/03/17