WHEN FEAR IS CONQUERED

WHEN FEAR BRINGS VICTORY

Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night..
Thinking of what you said or did and feeling unatural fright?

Asking yourself and God ..
"What have I done or
said today that was so
Displeasing..
Out of my mouth or written
Word, left a friend gasping,
Not breathing ..

I toss and turn with this guilt
And fear..
It is now becoming abundantly   clear..

Was I being careful to be silenced when I should
have said more ?
Did I say too much and hurt that  person to the core?

Do I write my words with haste
without thinking it through ??
Do I try too hard to impress and less time to let thoughts brew??

Dear God, My regrets and fears are worse in the darkness of the night .,
It is then I sense the curse, and it is then I feel that
Fright..
My sins are brought to me like a picture on wall..
Showing me exactly where I stumbled ..unkindness I recall

"God, forgive me" !! my inner voice cries out in fear..
"I have not been truthful, not humble or sincere"..
"I should have stopped and prayed before I said or jeered"..

Now this black cold night, is shouting my words back at me..
Feeling cursed, wrong and guilty, the doubt that seeps in completely..

Maybe it is then God can finally reach and teach me..
To wake me up in the dead of night..to make me face the words
I've spoken or wrote so curtly..

His voice saying to me in the stillness of the dark
black night..
"Learn to be more kind"..
"Love each one you meet"..
"Reach out by words and
Deeds"
Honor your neighbor and see their plight..

"To teach and touch your spirit,
You seem to hear me best..
When I wake you,  from your slumbered rest"..


His written words are brought to mind in the morning as I rise:


"LET THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE MEDITATIONS OF MY HEART BE ACCEPTABLE IN THY SIGHT,
MY ROCK AND MY REDEEMER"..
PSALMS 19:14



Patsy McNutt Morgan